... and we are back
Posted by UkraineJane, 04.01.2007, 22:18 in one sure way to freak your parents
and we are back in 2007. with a master plan.
soh:
1. graduate
2. pay my duty to the states by teaching for at least a year
3. find a job NOT in the west
4. move far far from the western lifestyle as possible and live a life that allows me to make a positive change in the lives of others.
corrections will be applied as we go, but man, i wish i could just skip through 2 and 3 into the settled life of 4 with the ability to save a little piece of the world around me.
...and there she is waking up at 4:30 in the morning with the first prayer of muslims. she goes on with her day, carrying a baby tightly wrapped in cloth to her back. she carries a bucket of food on her head to sell it at the road, or goes off to the field to farm. sometimes she cries with screams of slaughtered sheep, sometimes she laughs with the wide grins of kids playing in the dust. she is cold in the night because she does not have a sheet to cover herself, she sweats walking her path during the day. her sun hides in the dusty air and dully shines like a white coin in the milky white foggy sky. her forestest are being ruined, her women are put down, her men struggle to feed their families, her cows are skinny, and her dogs are so few. and yet she smiles all the time. unlike the one who has everything but seems to have sold her soul.
Ukraine, day 3
Posted by UkraineJane, 05.06.2006, 9:26 in one sure way to freak your parents
Home is so good. Heart to heart is so good. Babies are so good. No AC is so good. My parents are so good.
I dared to talk to my grandparents yesterday. We talked deep, to where it hurts. We talked about Ukraine and how she is. We talked about that what is to come for me, and what they would want it to look like. I threw in Africa. They did not freak (a miracle?!), but did not consider it the best idea possible. I think this random coming here made me seem too random and crazy but determined, so they do not simply dismiss anymore things that I consider good, though they disagree with them. It has never been this way. Somehow yesterday for the first time I was treated like a big girl who had valid thoughts. They took this idea carefully, savored it, but said that they would rather have me “have a good job.”
- what is a good job?
- that would be a job, which you love and enjoy, and for which you are paid, and do not work for free.
“Hm,” I thought, “I can surely fulfill the first part” 
They asked me when I will apply to a “University” because they do not consider Agnes’s BA as a degree. Well, I can see why. My grandpa has two degrees, one of them in engineering from Kyiv Polytech, and my grandma went to one of the best universities in St. Petersburg. My mom is talked about as “only a doctor” (which is something similar to having “just” MD), so they want me to be “better” than that. I defended Agnes since I do not consider the education given (or, the one taken by me) there in any way average.
Then my mom came to talk today. She brought up this marriage for security crap again, but my grandma defeated me with “she has to study, not look for boys.” That’s my grandma! I do not how she will ever consider that a good thing for me. And she will never consider any guy good enough, unless he is like grandpa. I surely agree now, while back in the day I considered that very silly. I even agree with her liking of people who know math. I think, it is very important as well
The strictest person I have ever known, the person who was harder on me than anybody ever in this world, the person who freiwillig or by force made me do a lot of things in this life (which I have been using along the way), my super grandma with who I first argued about politics… I think I am growing up to become more like her. Before I would never believe that I would want to be a “nazi” like her, but I kinda already am… Just need to learn to be clean freak J
Today started with a lovely thing of visiting a dentist. She was hilarious bcs she thought that I would be like my mom when it comes to dentists. My mom always comes with a friend who holds her legs bcs she kicks whoever messes with her teeth. Mom is really terrified of dentists. But everybody else is terrified of her
Program min for today is to go swim with my swimmers and read a gazillion of articles for my research. There is this lovely one with pretty formulas for Versuchung (how is that in English again?) to predict the behavior of the cocoa market, understanding (or at least an attempt) this one excites me the most. 
that's what i call princess food. this is why i do not eat american strawberries
we were thinking, if i am my mom's bcs we look so different. she is as pretty as always.
who would think that this sweet looking lady could run a big organization and make so many people FEAR her?
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i am in love again. with a girl, as i prefer it to be
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stuck in budapest + home at last
Posted by UkraineJane, 04.06.2006, 11:50 in one sure way to freak your parents
i forgot to post this, thought wrote it in budapest
y'all, pray that i get out of budapest bcs i am already missing one day of being at home.
i am stuck in Budapest bcs our plane waited for passangers in Frankfurt for THIRTY minutes, but the plane here did not wait for us for FIVE minutes.
i am very upset, but there is at least internet.
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whoever prayed for me or not, Lord did not leave me. a girl who i met on the plane took care of me in Kiev, and i stayed at her friends' apt for the night. somehow i started talking to all the kids who live/ happend to be there, and did not go to sleep that night at all. We shared dreams and thoughts. so i stayed up for two days in a row.
then it was a misery getting home: no tickets for the express trains (supposally, no more places), a huge suitcase that i had to move up and down staircases by myself and all that jazz. so i just asked the train lady to let me in and gave her some cash. that worked. oooh, Ukraine, you still function in strange ways! and DOCH, there were places in the train.
my parents totally flipped when i sent my mom an sms that i would be on our train station in an hour. they thought that i got kicked out of Uni and came home 
i love Ukraine. is there more to add? my princess being does not have a problem with the fact that there is no running water 24.00-6.00 every night and many other "crazy" things like that.
i'll post pictures of all the loved ones who are different, but still the same. + there is a new one - Lesya's and Vitalik's little Valeriya (Lerok). We found the common language right away - she started chewing on my neckless and pulling on my big earings (one ear is swallen today 
). she was crawling all over me all evening, and i was in heaven. Life is beautiful here in all its hardship.
visuals are to come some time soon.
one super mommy and one super young lady
some ppl look good and some smile like freaks
olya wished to shave off 20 years or so
here we go...
Posted by UkraineJane, 01.06.2006, 22:10 in one sure way to freak your parents
...God bless
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