I Am Back

Posted by , 24.08.2005, 15:48 in NYC2005

i dunno if i should be or

atl met me very well - i was very well taken care of. Jeff drove me home and we had a great long converstation about life. I love when people take a time to think about it and to listen what others do.

today i need to do lots of little things at Agnes, and then Pattie is coming over to talk and to pray and to hang.

i dreamt that Helen came back. I wish... I have lots of very vivid dreams lately. They are just so real that i doubt in the morning if something actually happend the day before or i was just dreaming.

the best news ever: "День Незалежності України цьогоріч відзначають скромно. Нова влада вирішила відмовитися від військового параду. Нема й численних зарубіжних гостей. Святкування розпочали ранковою молитвою у Соборі Cвятої Софії, де були Президент, спікер та Прем’єр. За Україну по черзі молилися патріархи 20-ти найбільших конфесій держави. " 5tv

i am so used to people not being responsible, reliable, on top of things, trustworthy and "snap-snap" that when they are, I kinda freak from being pleasently surprised.

we walked around Agnes with Pattie and prayed for it a little; prayed for my heart.

I have a heart for my team. I want it to be strong and real. I do not want social swimming and swimming to keep the body fat level down. We are gonna work our butts off, to tears - I just asked Ma'am for that on the phone.

дитячi перли
Jaden (about 6 yrs old)
she was playing with the phone in church pretending like she was talking to sb.
Daniel: Jaden, who are you talking to on the phone?
Jaden: my husband
then Daniel left, but she kept talking about how "her husband" left buggers on the shower curtain and how that was gross.

From The Past

Posted by , 23.08.2005, 15:17 in NYC2005

Katya came yesterday from Ukraine. She is 17, and reminds me so much of a girl i know very well. That girl also thought that she knew the life and had everything figured out. But life turned out to be very different.

I just realized yesterday how much i missed people's touch (i do not count pushing in the subway as such) and talk. We laughed till 2am about the Seminars and talked seriously about life. We were laying in the dark, and the waves of the city were splashing under the window.

i cannot stand when people do not strive for excellence.

MoMA is not happening. I was supposed to go today, but it's closed on Tues. I am screwed Dr. O's sis gave me a free ticket, but no good from it. She is awazing, just like Dr.O. She dances and teaches art his at Columbia. The first time i met her i thought she was 25 or so. The truth is 47 Amazing woman!

and it's messed up that memories bring up tears. but life is SO good. But I trust in you, O LORD; I say, "You are my God." ... Be strong and take heart, all you who hope in the LORD (Psalm 31:14, 24)

good old Seminar times, my splendid kids

Cannot Stand Leaving

Posted by , 22.08.2005, 17:41 in NYC2005

i am leaving tomorrow. this is the sickest feeling in the world - to leave. I left and was left so much that I should have gotten used to it, but no. I was watching Dr. O washing dishes today with the soap flying around the kitchen - tears came to my eyes. He is family for me, and coming to NYC is kinda like going home a little bit.

moreover, i will miss this

but actually, WHERE is home? I have not lived in Poltava for three years, Agnes is a college, just a place i am at for 4 years, and NYC is just a place i come to every once in a while... who is family? My parents do not know me onthe inside, my ATL ppl are the ones who know my troubles, my pains and my heart... Lord is all i have constant.

China town looks a lot better if to have Nicolò Paganini's violin playing in the MP3 player. My little dream came true - i bought frogs' legs

Toooooo Much

Posted by , 22.08.2005, 5:29 in NYC2005

wow. i am passed out tired. these 24 hrs were just too eventful and too stressful.
Toma's flight got all messed up and she came on the wrong airlines from the wrong city (moral of the story: never fly LOT). So Dr. O was freaking yesterday in the airport bcs could not find her, she called, so i told her to take a cab to his place, then he was freaking on me that she could get into a non-yellow cab and get killed somewhere here. We had a great family fight with him over the phone. Thank God, Toma made it alive and well in the yellow cab, and we grew a little closer in our family relationship with dr. O. So he says that I'm family, and does not even let me eat out of his new super expensive dished that he bought online. "It's for guests," he says, "you are family." I'll take that as a compliment

today...
toma and i got up. Guiseppe drove to the city, picked us up in his insane European car, drove us to Jersey city, we went for motocycle ride, drove back, got dropped of in China town, grabbed Natasha (Polish Russian girl), jumped on subway, went to Brighton Beach (Russian part of NYC), ran around there, ate human food, got hit on by a crazy Russian, jumped back on subway, went to Morning Star NYC, walked the Time Square and finally made it home. A pretty eventful first day in NYC for Toma .
i have no strength to resize and mess with pics in Phtoshop to post them here - just look at them on multiply.

Bis bald

Nyc Day 7

Posted by , 19.08.2005, 22:08 in NYC2005

went with Guiseppe and a couple of other European kids to Columbia to meet the head of La maison Française and the head of the European studeis dept. I served successfully as furniture smiling at both of them and shaking hands.
All this "important people" stuff makes me feel like i am not the right fit for all this. It makes me feel like I am worse than them or sth.
Natalia, G's friend, a very crazy Russian born Polish girl, typical Eastern European came with us. She changes boyfriends like a surgeon changes latex gloves. Sometimes i feel like people of the world have more zeal and more spice to them than many Christians. And this is just wrong. Not that it's good that she changes boyfriends, but it's good how she is the way she is, not trying to seem better or worse. I lack that so often.
Guiseppe gave me a "maybe" for a motocycle ride around NYC. That would be very exciting That could be the last thing I do on the Earth - his car driving is insane by itself; i thought i would fly out of his convertible today on the turns. No wonder, I heard that Italians are insane drivers.

this is also the color of my dreams

went to eat to a nice japanese restaurant and then after a long walk - for australian ice cream. where else in the world? and now we are sitting in the different corners of the room with our computers talking about egyptian (+ other old) art and sending each other links with pics we like. like this one